Mondays & Tomorrows
I am going to reference “Following the promptings of the Spirit’ and ‘Why start now’ in the post. Prior to the start of the 2023 cross-country season, I woke and as I was lying in bed, I had a voice tell me, “This is your last year of coaching.” I thought to myself, “that was weird, but ok.” Over the next several months, I needed to talk to my husband, get his ok, and then talk to the Athletic Director at the high school.
But, let’s back up a little bit…
In 2020, My husband and I helped our son purchase Log Craft Inc. The name was then changed to Log Craft General Contractors LLC. I ran the office (payroll, accounting etc…), while my son did everything else.
Due to covid, spring track was cancelled after our first track meet and I started watching my first grandson 3 days a week, while my daughter-in-law went back to work. Days that I didn’t watch my grandson; I would go to Log Craft’s shop and work in the office.
Fast forward 2 years and I had moved the Log Craft office to my home and started watching my now 2 grandchildren 5 days a week and taking both children to cross-country practice in the fall and track practice in the spring. I also started going to Heber Fit Body Boot Camp and attended the 5:45 am session. When XC & Track season started, I started attending the 5am session.
We are now to 2023, and I had been going to the Heber Fit Body Boot Camp for 2 years and attending 2 sessions each morning 5-6 days a week. When summer started, I was also attending xc practices at 7am and hiking with my grandkids in a double stroller while the team did their morning running workout. It was also during this time that I started experiencing a lot more anxiety than usual. So, I set up a doctor’s appointment and got put on some medication.
At the end of August, my daughter, who had been living with us, moved to Florida with her boyfriend. My grandchildren, whom I had been watching for the past 3 years full-time while their parents worked/went to school, started staying home with mom and I received the impression that this was going to be my last year of coaching. Consequently, I experienced many anxiety/panic attacks. My life was in chaos, and I felt like I had nothing left.
At this same time, I had stopped going to the gym completely and only attending the cross-country morning workouts at 6am as I led their workouts. Every other week, Mon & Wed was weights, while the other week was plyometrics. Tues & Thurs, I ran with the varsity athletes during their 6am shakeout run.
However, during this time – I gained 20 pounds. It was a stressful summer, and I started experiencing a lot of anxiety. I got on medication in the spring and at the beginning of August, I had the thought come to mind that I needed to double my medication. Within weeks of this thought, I started to have multiple anxiety attacks daily and struggled to get off the couch and get anything done. The doctor’s office ended up calling me to schedule an appointment for a medication check visit. Getting on more medication helped me emotionally and I was able to function.
On another medication check appointment in November 2023, it was determined that I would get put on a GLP-1 (semaglutide) medication to help me lose weight as I had topped 180 again. I did start to lose weight, but it was ever so slow, maybe 1-2 pounds per month. When I maxed out on dosage, my doctor switched me to another GLP-1 medication (terzepatide.)
Fast forward to our current timeframe.
While I didn’t max out on dosage with terzepatide, the cost was extremely high and with my husband’s pending surgeries and HSA funds being needed to cover our deductible I switched back to semaglutide through his HSA account.
Last week, I had my first coaching call. I got to set 2 goals. The first was walking daily for 30 minutes and the second was to increase me water intake to at least ½ my body weight in ounces. I had this call on Wednesday mid-morning in the middle of altering a suit. I decided that I had a full day and would need to start on my walking goal ‘tomorrow.’ I need to be better at tracking my water intake, but I feel that I drank at least 60 ounces. Again, I thought “I’ll be better tomorrow.” Tomorrow became today; did I make those changes? Nope! At the end of the day, I thought ‘tomorrow…’ then ‘tomorrow became Monday’.
Guess what today is? Monday. Guess what I did? Not only did I walk, but I jogged for 30 minutes on the treadmill. It was slow enough (slower than I’ve ever jogged before) that I was able to jog for 2 miles continuously. I then walked for an additional 15 minutes. Day 1 - goal accomplished.
My plan/goal is to take my life out of chaos and create structure. Structure is what I need for my neurodivergent mind. Hmmm, Neurodivergence’, that’s such a great topic! Maybe for another day.
Photo: The photo is of a sunrise representing ‘new beginnings’. I took this photo on a morning last year during the deer hunt.
